Saturday, October 20, 2012

A Big Juicy Fly

Hello everyone, and welcome to my new paradigm!  Things are shifting rapidly, and it excites me to tell you about my adventure last night.

So this summer, I went to Bonnaroo.  It was awesome, I got to see all the bands I wanted to see.  One of the shows I witnessed was Alice Cooper.  It was immediately after Red Hot Chili Peppers played.  I had been working all day as a volunteer.  I had been volunteering at the handicap platform in the center of the audience for RHCP, so I got to see the whole show from the best seats in the house.  But it was exhausting, and by the time I saw Alice, I was pooped.  I only watched about 20 minutes of the show before my exhaustion and hunger let me back to my camp.  Looking back on it recently, I felt a twinge of regret that I didn't get to enjoy such a legend.  My sister, who was 18 at the time, said she had the best time of her life when Alice played Eighteen.  I was jealous.

But I let it go, and I figured I'd eventually have my chance to see him again.

So a few days ago, a friend I had made through Divine Openings ( told me she would be coming upstate to see Alice Cooper, and wondered if I would like to join her.  She had an extra ticket!  I immediately agreed, and we made plans for me to pick her up from the bus station and take her to the show.

(Another detail to note is that, this weekend I had agreed to house sit for a friend of mine starting last night.  But she ended up telling me that she wasn't feeling well and wouldn't be leaving for the weekend after all)

So I picked her up and we had a great time talking, getting lost on the wrong highway, and discovering each other.  We had never met before, so it was fun!  But the craziest part was when she told me she was actually friends with one of the band members, and was on the guest list.  These weren't just tickets, they were VIP backstage passes and seats in the front section!  I had no idea!  I thought we were going to be up in the nosebleed sections of some arena-type setting, but it turned out to be a very small venue, and we were up close, about 15 feet from the stage.

At the end of the show, she brought me to the side and told me they would come out and usher us in to meet Alice and the band.  By this time, I had opened myself enough to allow that initial giddiness I felt when she first told me we might meet the band, to become confidence and collected excitement.

In walks her friend, the lead guitarist Ryan Roxie!  Totally decked out in badassitude, and casually sipping on a glass of $300 wine and basking in the afterglow of a successfully kickass concert.  We chatted, he offered me a sip of wine to show me that it wasn't really great wine after all, regardless of the price tag, and he invited us to hang out with him and the rest of the band as they celebrated their first show of the tour being a success.  I met Alice and got my picture with him, and I told him I would be meeting him again when I'm famous.  He said "Great!  I'll open for you!" which tickled me.

Suddenly we are in the band's dressing room, eating their snacks and drinking their coconut water.  Ryan is offering us cocktails.  And the next thing we know, we are on a VIP adventure through the halls of the casino, greeting fans and party-hopping.  An incredible moment of realization hit me as I walked into a club, escorted by the host to a small private section above the rest of the crowd.  It was like I was in my own movie!  I had imagined this a million times.  Hanging out in clubs and lounging in VIP sections with a small group of friends, being treated with utmost hospitality and privilege.

I created this!

Yet all the while, I felt this calm sense of knowing.  Of course I'm hanging out with rock stars.  I knew I was headed in this direction.  I felt completely comfortable with myself, and I felt absolutely appreciated and respected by every one of the band members.  This was a powerful and exciting way of my Dream acknowledging that Greatness is coming.  This was a deliciously tantalizing taste of what is in store for me.  It is fuel on my fire, and it is evidence that my capacity for these experiences has expanded.  Once, I saw Whoopi Goldberg in a grocery store and I was so star struck that I cried!  I didn't even meet her because I was too overwhelmed by it!  But this was completely different.  I didn't feel star struck at all.  I felt excited to be meeting such amazing and legendary artists, but I could feel that I have as much to offer of myself as they do.  I was actually getting into my real tribe.

People living their dreams passionately.  People expecting greatness of themselves, and offering it.  People pursuing greater expressions of their art and personality.  These are the kinds of people I want to be surrounded by.  Yes the glam and glitz of it all is delightful, but what really excites me is the chance to connect with people who are really making their mark on the world.  Because I fully intend to be one of those people.

A scene from Aladdin (my favorite Disney movie!) comes to mind, when Aladdin is fighting Jafar in the end and Jafar hits Magic Carpet with his magic and says "Things are unraveling fast now, boy!" and Carpet unravels and falls to the ground, a pile of threads and tassles.  My life feels right now like the opposite of that, when Aladdin breaks Jafar's spell and Carpet is magically re-woven.  Things are coming together quickly and assuredly, and I am excited and steady at the same time.  I feel the determination of my Dream making Herself real through me.  I trust Her and I feel supported by her.  I have the strongest sense of security I have ever had in my life, and I am truly thankful.


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