i just received an email with this link in it. it's beautiful!
http://redefineyourreality.com/mp3/RedefineYourReality-How-Can-I-Give-More.mp3
Monday, December 7, 2009
Sunday, December 6, 2009
the science of enlightenment!
believe it or not, i used to consider myself an atheist.
really! i did! back in the day when i was a punkass 15 year old, i hated everything that had to do with george w. bush, and therefore anyone and anything associated with the image of someone who would vote for george w. bush: god, bible thumpers, rednecks, white bread.... i was totally prejudiced.
needless to say, i realized that fighting hatred and prejudice with further hatred and prejudice was not the way to solve things! i've come a long way from being an angsty teen to being a god-loving, self-loving, and people-loving young woman. not only do i love god, but i am talking about it without embarrassment. and it's because i don't believe in god.
i know god exists.
and science is proving it daily now.
remember i mentioned Bruce Lipton in a post not too long ago ("sickness"). well here is the first clip of a lecture he did on the Biology of Perception. he proves using cellular biology that our perceptions and our beliefs affect our health.
his lecture was only the first half of the seminar, the second half of which was a lecture by Rob Williams. he is a psychologist who discovered the way to reprogram your subconscious mind to eliminate limiting thoughts that were placed there by our parents and society as we were growing up. he shows how to do one of the techniques in his Psych-K program, and my sister and i just tried it and it WORKED.
do you wish to see more science that is proving more and more every day that god exists and that we ARE god? here are books and movies you can learn from!
-What the Bleep Do We Know?!
-The Living Matrix
-The Book of Secrets - Deepak Chopra
-Conversations With God - Neale Donald Walsch
-The Power of Now - Eckhart Tolle
-The Biology of Belief - Dr. Bruce Lipton
there are so many more where those came from, but those are the most "mainstream" enlightenment thinkers. others include Dr. Rev. Michael Beckwith, Dr. Wayne Dyer, and so many others!
do you want to learn more about ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING? go to ted.com to see brief lectures on absolutely any topic, from cutting edge science to buddhist philosophy. the goal of TED is to bring world peace through the spread of knowledge.
lovin all of you!
really! i did! back in the day when i was a punkass 15 year old, i hated everything that had to do with george w. bush, and therefore anyone and anything associated with the image of someone who would vote for george w. bush: god, bible thumpers, rednecks, white bread.... i was totally prejudiced.
needless to say, i realized that fighting hatred and prejudice with further hatred and prejudice was not the way to solve things! i've come a long way from being an angsty teen to being a god-loving, self-loving, and people-loving young woman. not only do i love god, but i am talking about it without embarrassment. and it's because i don't believe in god.
i know god exists.
and science is proving it daily now.
remember i mentioned Bruce Lipton in a post not too long ago ("sickness"). well here is the first clip of a lecture he did on the Biology of Perception. he proves using cellular biology that our perceptions and our beliefs affect our health.
his lecture was only the first half of the seminar, the second half of which was a lecture by Rob Williams. he is a psychologist who discovered the way to reprogram your subconscious mind to eliminate limiting thoughts that were placed there by our parents and society as we were growing up. he shows how to do one of the techniques in his Psych-K program, and my sister and i just tried it and it WORKED.
do you wish to see more science that is proving more and more every day that god exists and that we ARE god? here are books and movies you can learn from!
-What the Bleep Do We Know?!
-The Living Matrix
-The Book of Secrets - Deepak Chopra
-Conversations With God - Neale Donald Walsch
-The Power of Now - Eckhart Tolle
-The Biology of Belief - Dr. Bruce Lipton
there are so many more where those came from, but those are the most "mainstream" enlightenment thinkers. others include Dr. Rev. Michael Beckwith, Dr. Wayne Dyer, and so many others!
do you want to learn more about ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING? go to ted.com to see brief lectures on absolutely any topic, from cutting edge science to buddhist philosophy. the goal of TED is to bring world peace through the spread of knowledge.
lovin all of you!
Friday, December 4, 2009
I say ye shall have enlightenment if ye do call upon patience as your armament and declare yourselves deserving
i just visited a website that a friend i met in San Diego told me about. it's called soulcraftteachings.com, and there are several e-books on the site, including the entire Golden Scripts, which apparently is very rare to find in print anymore.
the quote in the title is from the Golden Scripts, and it is a perfect summation of what i have been learning and REALizing (ie: making REAL in my life) since this summer.
anyone can be enlightened. it is not just a privelage given to a select few, like jesus, the buddha, hare krishna, etc. these people were examples that we can all embody IN REAL LIFE, IN THIS DAY AND AGE, AT ANY AGE.
there are a few simple keys to enlightenment, that everyone can understand if they so choose.
first you must know that you deserve to know the Truth.
you must then realize that you ALREADY know the Truth, and always have.
the Truth is: I am God. Everyone around me is not separate from me, but One with me. The appearance of separation is an illusion. I am God, and everyone and everything around me and within me is God as well.
once you understand and accept this Truth as being True, you can then take steps to embody that Truth. follow the Golden Law consciously, rather than unconsciously. it is not a Golden Rule, because rules can be broken. the Golden Law applies 100% of the time, whether you believe in it or not.
Do unto others as you would have them do unto you. that is; put forth the energy you wish to receive; what goes around comes around.
do you wish to have more love in your life? more money? more blessings? give them first. all the world is a system of energy exchange. you breathe in oxygen, you breathe out carbon dioxide, which trees breathe in and in turn breathe out oxygen. exchange of energy. a smile is energy. a kind word. a hug. eye contact. these are all very simple forms of energy. when you consciously put forth these forms of energy in positive and loving ways, you will notice receiving much more positive and loving energy in other forms from other people.
you've heard the term "karma's a bitch." well not if you use her to your advantage! karma is there to serve. karma will always serve back to you multifold that which you have served to others. karma does not judge. karma does not care who you are, what your name is, how "important" or "unimportant" you think you are. karma is consistent and predictable. do you wish to receive? then GIVE FIRST, without the expectation of reciprocity. give with love, with detachment, and with thanks. because that which you give another, you give yourself.
these are all things that have been said before. i am not the first to say any of this. but because i am a peer to most of you who read this, i think it probably makes it easier to listen to and understand.
the whole world works in the same way that the human body works. each cell lives joyfully to serve the Whole. it fears not for its own survival, but rather knows that the work it does for the cells around it will come back benefit it. this is because EVERY SINGLE CELL IS OF THIS MIND. every cell is working selflessly. in being selfless, it survives easier and for a longer time than those cells which stand alone (amoebas, paramecia, etc).
if we wish to see change come to this planet (and i hope you all wish to see change come to this planet, because there is a lot going on right now that needs to be remedied quickly), we need to stop being so freaked out by eachother. stop being so afraid to MAKE EYE CONTACT. stop worrying about getting what's "rightfully yours" and ask yourself how you can help another achieve what is rightfully theirs. ask yourself what you have to offer another.
because every single one of you has something to offer. don't worry about how big or small of an impact it may seem to have. don't worry about what people will think of you. just offer your service. eventually people will come to you to receive that service. and you will soon find yourself receiving a lot more than you are giving out.
you deserve all the wealth, abundance, and love that the universe has to offer.
fear not.
be love.
one love
one heart
let's get together and
feel alright.
LOVE!
the quote in the title is from the Golden Scripts, and it is a perfect summation of what i have been learning and REALizing (ie: making REAL in my life) since this summer.
anyone can be enlightened. it is not just a privelage given to a select few, like jesus, the buddha, hare krishna, etc. these people were examples that we can all embody IN REAL LIFE, IN THIS DAY AND AGE, AT ANY AGE.
there are a few simple keys to enlightenment, that everyone can understand if they so choose.
first you must know that you deserve to know the Truth.
you must then realize that you ALREADY know the Truth, and always have.
the Truth is: I am God. Everyone around me is not separate from me, but One with me. The appearance of separation is an illusion. I am God, and everyone and everything around me and within me is God as well.
once you understand and accept this Truth as being True, you can then take steps to embody that Truth. follow the Golden Law consciously, rather than unconsciously. it is not a Golden Rule, because rules can be broken. the Golden Law applies 100% of the time, whether you believe in it or not.
Do unto others as you would have them do unto you. that is; put forth the energy you wish to receive; what goes around comes around.
do you wish to have more love in your life? more money? more blessings? give them first. all the world is a system of energy exchange. you breathe in oxygen, you breathe out carbon dioxide, which trees breathe in and in turn breathe out oxygen. exchange of energy. a smile is energy. a kind word. a hug. eye contact. these are all very simple forms of energy. when you consciously put forth these forms of energy in positive and loving ways, you will notice receiving much more positive and loving energy in other forms from other people.
you've heard the term "karma's a bitch." well not if you use her to your advantage! karma is there to serve. karma will always serve back to you multifold that which you have served to others. karma does not judge. karma does not care who you are, what your name is, how "important" or "unimportant" you think you are. karma is consistent and predictable. do you wish to receive? then GIVE FIRST, without the expectation of reciprocity. give with love, with detachment, and with thanks. because that which you give another, you give yourself.
these are all things that have been said before. i am not the first to say any of this. but because i am a peer to most of you who read this, i think it probably makes it easier to listen to and understand.
the whole world works in the same way that the human body works. each cell lives joyfully to serve the Whole. it fears not for its own survival, but rather knows that the work it does for the cells around it will come back benefit it. this is because EVERY SINGLE CELL IS OF THIS MIND. every cell is working selflessly. in being selfless, it survives easier and for a longer time than those cells which stand alone (amoebas, paramecia, etc).
if we wish to see change come to this planet (and i hope you all wish to see change come to this planet, because there is a lot going on right now that needs to be remedied quickly), we need to stop being so freaked out by eachother. stop being so afraid to MAKE EYE CONTACT. stop worrying about getting what's "rightfully yours" and ask yourself how you can help another achieve what is rightfully theirs. ask yourself what you have to offer another.
because every single one of you has something to offer. don't worry about how big or small of an impact it may seem to have. don't worry about what people will think of you. just offer your service. eventually people will come to you to receive that service. and you will soon find yourself receiving a lot more than you are giving out.
you deserve all the wealth, abundance, and love that the universe has to offer.
fear not.
be love.
one love
one heart
let's get together and
feel alright.
LOVE!
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
thankfulness and forgiveness go hand-in-hand
today i am thankful for:
-funny television that comes in handy when i need to get my mind off of silly "real life" dramas
-loving advice from my mom and sister
-sweet dreams about a beautiful boy i still love
-Conversations With God, by Neale Donald Walsch
-peanut butter and honey
i have to start out small in times like this. i've been going through a lot lately. i have had to come face-to-face with my own selfishness and its destructive consequences. i have lost friends in rapid succession due to my own childish, selfish, and egoic behavior. i have had to face the fact that i have created all of this. ALL OF THIS. that makes it feel so much worse than anything.
but i have to take responsibility for my own change. so i am taking my mother's suggestion, and i am going to focus on what i can be thankful for. 5 things each day. i can do that. i can hold tight, find my center, regain my balance, re-collect my marbles. and i WILL be stronger and brighter for it.
the most ironic and beautiful lesson that i've learned is this: despite how much i resisted coming home to my family, despite the "negative energy" i felt from this home and this family, despite trying to avoid learning from my mother and listening to her wisdom and experience... i have been forced to come home and do those things and LISTEN. and i have realized that there is so much more wisdom and learning to be gained from my family. in my time of greatest pain and hardship, as all of my friends seem to have turned their back on me (and right they should, i've been an asshole), my family has been able to forgive me and care for me and show me unconditional love and support in the ways i've been needing it the most. i'm grateful beyond words. i'm thankful that the universe finally forced me to come here and SIT, and STAY, and CHILL THE FUCK OUT.
i would have kept running around. running away. i would have been sick and alone on the street or somewhere else, with less than nothing but my own mistakes.
i love myself, no matter what. i know i've messed up. everyone i've hurt doesn't think i'm aware of what i've done, but i am. more than i ever wanted to be, i am aware. i acknowledge my mistakes, which have been HUGE. i acknowledge the pain i've inflicted on those around me who only wanted to show me love. that pain must have been intense. i sure know it, because that which you cause another to feel, you ultimately cause yourself to feel. and i have never felt so much pain in such concentrated amounts. i never want to cause that kind of pain again. i never want to harm another again. i never want to fall asleep at the wheel of my life EVER AGAIN. the pain inflicted on myself is enough to put me in my place for a lifetime.
i can't ask the forgiveness of any of the people i've harmed. they have every right to deny me that, and that's okay.
but i can forgive myself. i can accept that i've made mistakes and forgive myself for them and consciously change my behavior so as to match Who I Want To Be.
here is a passage from Conversations With God Book 3 that has given me much needed strength in this time of inner turmoil. god is speaking to Neale Donald Walsh, who has just expressed his feelings of unworthiness and self-doubt.
Yet I tell you this. You are worthy. As is everyone else. Unworthiness is the worst indictment ever visited upon the human race. You have based your sense of worthiness on the past, while I base your sense of worthiness on the future.
The future, the future, always the future! That is where your life is, not in the past. The future. That is where your truth is, not in the past.
What you have done is unimportant compared to what you are about to do. How you have erred is insignificant compared to how you are about to create.
I forgive your mistakes. All of them. I forgive your misplaced passions. All of them. I forgive your erroneous notions, your misguided understandings, your hurtful actions, your selfish decisions. All of them.
Others may not forgive you, but I do. Others may not release you from your guilt, but I do. Others may not let you forget, allow you to go on, become something new, but I do. For I know that you are not what you were, but are, and always will be, what you are now.
A sinner can become a saint in one minute. In one second. In one breath.
In truth, there is no such thing as a "sinner," for no one can be sinned against -- least of all Me. That is why I say that I "forgive" you. I use the phrase because it is one you seem to understand.
In truth, I do not forgive you, and will not forgive you ever, for anything. I do not have to. There is nothing to forgive. But I can release you. And I hereby do. Now. Once again. As I have done so often in the past, through the teachings of so many others. (pages 86-87)
i love all of you. i don't care who you are, i don't care what your relationship is to me. i don't care if we've never met before. i love you all, because you and i are the same. we are literally One and the same.
do unto others as you would have them do unto you. this is because there is ONLY ONE OF US. there is no other. you are talking to yourself in every interaction with "another." every person you interact with, ever person in the world, is an expression of that which is you. whether it is you in this Now, you in a past Now, or you in a future Now. everyone you meet, or don't meet.
therefore, forgive everyone. no matter what they do or say to you. forgive them, because chances are you have been where they are, and you have done what they are doing. do not sneer upon that which you once were. we are all evolving, and everyone is doing it in their own time and in their own way. be patient. be loving. be forgiving. and stand as an example of Love and Light, always, no matter what comes your way. i know i haven't done that these past couple weeks. but now i recognize my error, and i am taking strides to change and grow. i know you are all doing your best to do the same.
i love you.
-funny television that comes in handy when i need to get my mind off of silly "real life" dramas
-loving advice from my mom and sister
-sweet dreams about a beautiful boy i still love
-Conversations With God, by Neale Donald Walsch
-peanut butter and honey
i have to start out small in times like this. i've been going through a lot lately. i have had to come face-to-face with my own selfishness and its destructive consequences. i have lost friends in rapid succession due to my own childish, selfish, and egoic behavior. i have had to face the fact that i have created all of this. ALL OF THIS. that makes it feel so much worse than anything.
but i have to take responsibility for my own change. so i am taking my mother's suggestion, and i am going to focus on what i can be thankful for. 5 things each day. i can do that. i can hold tight, find my center, regain my balance, re-collect my marbles. and i WILL be stronger and brighter for it.
the most ironic and beautiful lesson that i've learned is this: despite how much i resisted coming home to my family, despite the "negative energy" i felt from this home and this family, despite trying to avoid learning from my mother and listening to her wisdom and experience... i have been forced to come home and do those things and LISTEN. and i have realized that there is so much more wisdom and learning to be gained from my family. in my time of greatest pain and hardship, as all of my friends seem to have turned their back on me (and right they should, i've been an asshole), my family has been able to forgive me and care for me and show me unconditional love and support in the ways i've been needing it the most. i'm grateful beyond words. i'm thankful that the universe finally forced me to come here and SIT, and STAY, and CHILL THE FUCK OUT.
i would have kept running around. running away. i would have been sick and alone on the street or somewhere else, with less than nothing but my own mistakes.
i love myself, no matter what. i know i've messed up. everyone i've hurt doesn't think i'm aware of what i've done, but i am. more than i ever wanted to be, i am aware. i acknowledge my mistakes, which have been HUGE. i acknowledge the pain i've inflicted on those around me who only wanted to show me love. that pain must have been intense. i sure know it, because that which you cause another to feel, you ultimately cause yourself to feel. and i have never felt so much pain in such concentrated amounts. i never want to cause that kind of pain again. i never want to harm another again. i never want to fall asleep at the wheel of my life EVER AGAIN. the pain inflicted on myself is enough to put me in my place for a lifetime.
i can't ask the forgiveness of any of the people i've harmed. they have every right to deny me that, and that's okay.
but i can forgive myself. i can accept that i've made mistakes and forgive myself for them and consciously change my behavior so as to match Who I Want To Be.
here is a passage from Conversations With God Book 3 that has given me much needed strength in this time of inner turmoil. god is speaking to Neale Donald Walsh, who has just expressed his feelings of unworthiness and self-doubt.
Yet I tell you this. You are worthy. As is everyone else. Unworthiness is the worst indictment ever visited upon the human race. You have based your sense of worthiness on the past, while I base your sense of worthiness on the future.
The future, the future, always the future! That is where your life is, not in the past. The future. That is where your truth is, not in the past.
What you have done is unimportant compared to what you are about to do. How you have erred is insignificant compared to how you are about to create.
I forgive your mistakes. All of them. I forgive your misplaced passions. All of them. I forgive your erroneous notions, your misguided understandings, your hurtful actions, your selfish decisions. All of them.
Others may not forgive you, but I do. Others may not release you from your guilt, but I do. Others may not let you forget, allow you to go on, become something new, but I do. For I know that you are not what you were, but are, and always will be, what you are now.
A sinner can become a saint in one minute. In one second. In one breath.
In truth, there is no such thing as a "sinner," for no one can be sinned against -- least of all Me. That is why I say that I "forgive" you. I use the phrase because it is one you seem to understand.
In truth, I do not forgive you, and will not forgive you ever, for anything. I do not have to. There is nothing to forgive. But I can release you. And I hereby do. Now. Once again. As I have done so often in the past, through the teachings of so many others. (pages 86-87)
i love all of you. i don't care who you are, i don't care what your relationship is to me. i don't care if we've never met before. i love you all, because you and i are the same. we are literally One and the same.
do unto others as you would have them do unto you. this is because there is ONLY ONE OF US. there is no other. you are talking to yourself in every interaction with "another." every person you interact with, ever person in the world, is an expression of that which is you. whether it is you in this Now, you in a past Now, or you in a future Now. everyone you meet, or don't meet.
therefore, forgive everyone. no matter what they do or say to you. forgive them, because chances are you have been where they are, and you have done what they are doing. do not sneer upon that which you once were. we are all evolving, and everyone is doing it in their own time and in their own way. be patient. be loving. be forgiving. and stand as an example of Love and Light, always, no matter what comes your way. i know i haven't done that these past couple weeks. but now i recognize my error, and i am taking strides to change and grow. i know you are all doing your best to do the same.
i love you.
Monday, November 30, 2009
my disclaimer
i need to be honest and up front with myself and everyone who reads this.
i am learning, just like all of you. i write in this blog so that i may try to sort out my thoughts, or at least put them somewhere other than in my mind. it becomes overwhelming to constantly have these things chattering at me. so this blog is very much like my journal. but i choose to allow you all to read it because i feel that by opening myself and my experience to you, and showing you all aspects of me, unfiltered, perhaps you all may find some insight into your own personal situations. i do not claim to know everything for all of you. you must make the judgement whether what i say holds true for you or not. not everything i write is necessarily with the intention of teaching or making myself look good. i am just trying to figure things out, just like everyone else.
therefore, please take everything i say, and consider whether or not it is true for you. please understand that i am merely expressing thoughts. not every thought is a true thought. indeed, many of my thoughts are dark and shrouded by ego. sometimes i have to express those before i can recognize them as untrue. try to take what i say from an objective standpoint, and don't become hurt by my expression. if i write something that you disagree with or that you find hurtful, please tell me and i will try to amend it in my next post. as in my "real" life, my truth is constantly growing and evolving. you can observe this evolution of personal truth in the blog posts. i will not remove anything i have previously written. i will only clarify or make amendments or give light to something i have learned since in the next post.
thank you all for taking the time to peek into my experience. i know i sometimes may seem cold, or harsh in the way i regard others. please know that i am constantly making strides to change those parts of me which no longer serve me and those around me.
i love all of you. thanks for your patience and love and understanding :)
i am learning, just like all of you. i write in this blog so that i may try to sort out my thoughts, or at least put them somewhere other than in my mind. it becomes overwhelming to constantly have these things chattering at me. so this blog is very much like my journal. but i choose to allow you all to read it because i feel that by opening myself and my experience to you, and showing you all aspects of me, unfiltered, perhaps you all may find some insight into your own personal situations. i do not claim to know everything for all of you. you must make the judgement whether what i say holds true for you or not. not everything i write is necessarily with the intention of teaching or making myself look good. i am just trying to figure things out, just like everyone else.
therefore, please take everything i say, and consider whether or not it is true for you. please understand that i am merely expressing thoughts. not every thought is a true thought. indeed, many of my thoughts are dark and shrouded by ego. sometimes i have to express those before i can recognize them as untrue. try to take what i say from an objective standpoint, and don't become hurt by my expression. if i write something that you disagree with or that you find hurtful, please tell me and i will try to amend it in my next post. as in my "real" life, my truth is constantly growing and evolving. you can observe this evolution of personal truth in the blog posts. i will not remove anything i have previously written. i will only clarify or make amendments or give light to something i have learned since in the next post.
thank you all for taking the time to peek into my experience. i know i sometimes may seem cold, or harsh in the way i regard others. please know that i am constantly making strides to change those parts of me which no longer serve me and those around me.
i love all of you. thanks for your patience and love and understanding :)
"sometimes you just have to force yourself not to respond, especially if responding is going to be hurtful"
my mom just said that to me.
i feel so lost. i don't know what i'm doing wrong. why is it that whenever i make a choice, or say something out of a place that i think is love, someone get's pissed off at me, or misunderstands my intentions, or just plain gets hurt?
god, please tell me what i can do to change my behavior so that i don't continue to step on everyone around me while trying to make decisions.
well the best way to stop stepping on everyone is to stand still and pay attention to where they are in relation to you.
what does that mean? how do i do that in reality?
just breathe. look at your friends, and imagine yourself where they are. why would your friend feel slighted by your actions?
because maybe she thinks i'm ungrateful for all the love that she and her family gave me over the weekend.
and why would she feel that way?
because i wrote about it in a blog post and told everyone to read it...
perhaps not everyone wants your lessons to be publicly viewed?
what should i do? i can't erase my actions, and i don't want to erase anything i've said. i still find truth in them...
maybe you could simply make amends by clarifying what you have written, by pointing out that you ARE in fact grateful, beyond words. words are the least effective purveyor of truth. they become misconstrued and are interpreted via each person's individual filtor: their mind, and their experience. your words, though they ring true for you and your experience, may not hold the same truth for your best friend and your partner. they may not see the angle you are viewing things from. they may think you are acting and speaking without love for them and their realities. although this is certainly not true for you (if you had no compassion for the ones you loved, you would not be feeling the sting of your actions on them), they aren't so sure. reassure them that you are not trying to hurt them. you are a human being with human experiences, all of which are perfect and beautiful in their own way. you are not doing anything "wrong." you are experiencing, and that is what you should be doing. you are remembering that you are part of a whole, and simply the fact that you understand that you may have hurt them by what you have written here proves that you are earnest in your learning experience. it shows that you care to make "right" what you may have done "wrong" by them. in this, you are also learning to make right what you have done wrong by your Self.
what have i been doing wrong by my Self?
remember, you are never doing anything "wrong." there is no such thing as "right" or "wrong."
yes, i know, i've been reading that in Conversations with God.
i know you have, and i'm just reminding you of that.
thanks, but now what can i change? what have i been ignoring, or missing?
you have been ignoring the fact that EVERYONE is JUST AS MUCH OF A DIVINE BEING AS YOU ARE. whether you are talking to a "jock" who doesn't seem to understand you on any level, or whether you are talking to Jesus the Christ himself. there is no better or worse in the eyes of God. there is nothing more or less divine in the universe. everyone is playing on their own level, by their own rules, and with their own spectrum of understanding. just because you have a broader range of understanding than some people your age does not make your choices or your reality any more important than their's. you are beautiful and magnificent and perfect, and so is everyone else. judge not lest ye be judged. you have been judging the love that the people around you have been trying to show you. you have labeled it as not good enough for someone of your caliber. yet i tell you this, all love is love, and every bit of love is just as important as the next. the same goes with money, oxygen, fire, or any other form of energy. when you can learn to count the pennies of love as equally important as the million-dollar check of love, then you will truly understand the value in those around you. they are all doing their best. they are all giving you love from their place of highest understanding. they are all trying to tell you their point of view. do not label it as "not truth" just because you see things differently. everyone's truth is truth, because everyone is creating their own reality. nobody does anything they think is wrong, in relationship to their worldview and their frame of mind. everyone is doing their best. just love them for it, and accept every penny of love they are trying to give to you. pennies add up, you know. this whole analogy is what you have been missing in your search for actual money as well.
is this all coming from me? i never really thought about any of this in that way... thank you for the insight, whoever gave that to me.
you know who gave it to you. you gave it to yourself, and I gave it to you, and so did everyone around you. you know the truth. you are the truth. be love, be the truth, and just relax. you have everything you've ever desired. stop questioning the motives of god. you know that you have and are everything you choose to have and be. choose love. choose prosperity. choose health. you are already all of these things. you have no need to fear!
just relax. you're okay, and so is everyone and everything else. you haven't lost anything, you haven't done irreparable damage, you haven't "fucked everything up." you're just in the process of becoming more aware. pain is simply the body, mind, or soul bringing attention to something that needs to be addressed. if you bump into a table in the middle of the night because the lights were off, the pain you feel in your hip is your body bringing attention to the fact that there is an object there, to your left, and that you should make more of an effort to feel out your environmet before you go further. that is what is happening here with you socially. you keep bumping into things, wondering why everything keeps hurting you and everyone else. you haven't taken the time to stand still, feel out your environment, and decide the best and most pain-free route of action. now is that time for you. just hold still for a bit. everything is working, don't worry. the universe and all of its good does not stop making progress if you take a break to catch your breath. everything is moving forward, whether you are standing still or not.
thank you god. you're right about everything. my mom has been trying to tell me this for weeks now and i didn't want to listen to her.
thank you to everyone who has been so patient with me while i had my eyes closed.
LOVE!
i feel so lost. i don't know what i'm doing wrong. why is it that whenever i make a choice, or say something out of a place that i think is love, someone get's pissed off at me, or misunderstands my intentions, or just plain gets hurt?
god, please tell me what i can do to change my behavior so that i don't continue to step on everyone around me while trying to make decisions.
well the best way to stop stepping on everyone is to stand still and pay attention to where they are in relation to you.
what does that mean? how do i do that in reality?
just breathe. look at your friends, and imagine yourself where they are. why would your friend feel slighted by your actions?
because maybe she thinks i'm ungrateful for all the love that she and her family gave me over the weekend.
and why would she feel that way?
because i wrote about it in a blog post and told everyone to read it...
perhaps not everyone wants your lessons to be publicly viewed?
what should i do? i can't erase my actions, and i don't want to erase anything i've said. i still find truth in them...
maybe you could simply make amends by clarifying what you have written, by pointing out that you ARE in fact grateful, beyond words. words are the least effective purveyor of truth. they become misconstrued and are interpreted via each person's individual filtor: their mind, and their experience. your words, though they ring true for you and your experience, may not hold the same truth for your best friend and your partner. they may not see the angle you are viewing things from. they may think you are acting and speaking without love for them and their realities. although this is certainly not true for you (if you had no compassion for the ones you loved, you would not be feeling the sting of your actions on them), they aren't so sure. reassure them that you are not trying to hurt them. you are a human being with human experiences, all of which are perfect and beautiful in their own way. you are not doing anything "wrong." you are experiencing, and that is what you should be doing. you are remembering that you are part of a whole, and simply the fact that you understand that you may have hurt them by what you have written here proves that you are earnest in your learning experience. it shows that you care to make "right" what you may have done "wrong" by them. in this, you are also learning to make right what you have done wrong by your Self.
what have i been doing wrong by my Self?
remember, you are never doing anything "wrong." there is no such thing as "right" or "wrong."
yes, i know, i've been reading that in Conversations with God.
i know you have, and i'm just reminding you of that.
thanks, but now what can i change? what have i been ignoring, or missing?
you have been ignoring the fact that EVERYONE is JUST AS MUCH OF A DIVINE BEING AS YOU ARE. whether you are talking to a "jock" who doesn't seem to understand you on any level, or whether you are talking to Jesus the Christ himself. there is no better or worse in the eyes of God. there is nothing more or less divine in the universe. everyone is playing on their own level, by their own rules, and with their own spectrum of understanding. just because you have a broader range of understanding than some people your age does not make your choices or your reality any more important than their's. you are beautiful and magnificent and perfect, and so is everyone else. judge not lest ye be judged. you have been judging the love that the people around you have been trying to show you. you have labeled it as not good enough for someone of your caliber. yet i tell you this, all love is love, and every bit of love is just as important as the next. the same goes with money, oxygen, fire, or any other form of energy. when you can learn to count the pennies of love as equally important as the million-dollar check of love, then you will truly understand the value in those around you. they are all doing their best. they are all giving you love from their place of highest understanding. they are all trying to tell you their point of view. do not label it as "not truth" just because you see things differently. everyone's truth is truth, because everyone is creating their own reality. nobody does anything they think is wrong, in relationship to their worldview and their frame of mind. everyone is doing their best. just love them for it, and accept every penny of love they are trying to give to you. pennies add up, you know. this whole analogy is what you have been missing in your search for actual money as well.
is this all coming from me? i never really thought about any of this in that way... thank you for the insight, whoever gave that to me.
you know who gave it to you. you gave it to yourself, and I gave it to you, and so did everyone around you. you know the truth. you are the truth. be love, be the truth, and just relax. you have everything you've ever desired. stop questioning the motives of god. you know that you have and are everything you choose to have and be. choose love. choose prosperity. choose health. you are already all of these things. you have no need to fear!
just relax. you're okay, and so is everyone and everything else. you haven't lost anything, you haven't done irreparable damage, you haven't "fucked everything up." you're just in the process of becoming more aware. pain is simply the body, mind, or soul bringing attention to something that needs to be addressed. if you bump into a table in the middle of the night because the lights were off, the pain you feel in your hip is your body bringing attention to the fact that there is an object there, to your left, and that you should make more of an effort to feel out your environmet before you go further. that is what is happening here with you socially. you keep bumping into things, wondering why everything keeps hurting you and everyone else. you haven't taken the time to stand still, feel out your environment, and decide the best and most pain-free route of action. now is that time for you. just hold still for a bit. everything is working, don't worry. the universe and all of its good does not stop making progress if you take a break to catch your breath. everything is moving forward, whether you are standing still or not.
thank you god. you're right about everything. my mom has been trying to tell me this for weeks now and i didn't want to listen to her.
thank you to everyone who has been so patient with me while i had my eyes closed.
LOVE!
Saturday, November 28, 2009
comfortably uncomfortable
you know the feeling, when you're almost asleep, and your bed is so warm and cozy, and you feel like you are just drifting on a cloud.... but then you realize you REALLY have to pee? the pain in your bladder is almost unbearable, but you don't want to leave the beautiful comfort of your bed. if you let it go long enough, you'll either violently escape your bed to run to the bathroom, or you just hope the pain goes away until you end up wetting the bed.
it seems like a lose-lose situation. either lose the comfort of your bed and gain the comfort of an empty bladder, or keep the comfort of your bed only to lose that comfort as soon as it becomes soaked with your urine.
this is a strange analogy, i know, but i realized it's what had become of my first and only boyfriend-girlfriend relationship.
we loved eachother so much. but there were differences that made things a little difficult. i ended up violently escaping my bed so as to relieve some of the pain i was feeling (ironically enough, i actually was having bladder problems, which have been subsequently solved). but in doing so, i risked not being able to find the same comfort that i had found with my boyfriend. in fact, both of us have realized that it wasn't comfortable for either of us as much as it should have been.
i feel like a lot of people have become comfortably uncomfortable with their lives. they have a job they don't like, but it supplies them with the money they need to have the things they want. they have a spouse who doesn't satisfy their needs and desires, but it is the only person they have found who is willing to be with them. there are numerous other situations which make us uncomfortable, but we are comfortable enough that we ignore the discomfort.
by acknowledging any discomfort, whether emotional, physical, or spiritual, and trying to figure out where the discomfort is coming from, it is easier to gently get out of bed at the first sight of pain, release what needs to be released, and trust that the bed will be more comfortable once you take care of yourself.
we always forget to take care of ourselves. we're constantly surrounded by people or things that seem to need our attention. mothers forget about their health in lieu of a new baby. an engineer doesn't get enough sleep or healthy food because he is busy on a new project. a student drinks coffee and smokes cigarettes to stay awake so she can cram for a test the next day. these are things all of us do, in some way or another. but in paying attention to things outside of ourselves, we forget to take care of what's inside of our Selves.
my ex-boyfriend once told me, while i was in california, missing him terribly, that "pain is fear leaving the body." if pain did not express itself (whether physically or emotionally), it would stay inside, as fear. fear colors our worldview and brings more pain upon ourselves. it's a good thing to express the pain and fear that we feel. i have been surrounded by loving beautiful people who have been trying to help me get through the pain of this recent breakup (which i've never experienced, by the way. i've only had one boyfriend in my life). i am so thankful for their loving patience. but they have been trying to tell me to stop crying, to stop being upset, to stop feeling this pain. all i want, though, is to feel the pain, express it, and release it. i cannot release that which i push back down into the deepest corners of my mind. all of it needs to get out of me. no one would ever tell another person, "oh, you have to go to the bathroom? well, that's not good for you, just ignore the pain, it'll go away." no one would ever tell someone who was sick to their stomach and throwing up "swallow that back down, you don't need to throw up, throwing up sucks." the thought is absurd. if you need to get something out, get it out! it's doing no good to you when it's trapped inside!
pain not expressed is worse than pain felt and then buried.
love
it seems like a lose-lose situation. either lose the comfort of your bed and gain the comfort of an empty bladder, or keep the comfort of your bed only to lose that comfort as soon as it becomes soaked with your urine.
this is a strange analogy, i know, but i realized it's what had become of my first and only boyfriend-girlfriend relationship.
we loved eachother so much. but there were differences that made things a little difficult. i ended up violently escaping my bed so as to relieve some of the pain i was feeling (ironically enough, i actually was having bladder problems, which have been subsequently solved). but in doing so, i risked not being able to find the same comfort that i had found with my boyfriend. in fact, both of us have realized that it wasn't comfortable for either of us as much as it should have been.
i feel like a lot of people have become comfortably uncomfortable with their lives. they have a job they don't like, but it supplies them with the money they need to have the things they want. they have a spouse who doesn't satisfy their needs and desires, but it is the only person they have found who is willing to be with them. there are numerous other situations which make us uncomfortable, but we are comfortable enough that we ignore the discomfort.
by acknowledging any discomfort, whether emotional, physical, or spiritual, and trying to figure out where the discomfort is coming from, it is easier to gently get out of bed at the first sight of pain, release what needs to be released, and trust that the bed will be more comfortable once you take care of yourself.
we always forget to take care of ourselves. we're constantly surrounded by people or things that seem to need our attention. mothers forget about their health in lieu of a new baby. an engineer doesn't get enough sleep or healthy food because he is busy on a new project. a student drinks coffee and smokes cigarettes to stay awake so she can cram for a test the next day. these are things all of us do, in some way or another. but in paying attention to things outside of ourselves, we forget to take care of what's inside of our Selves.
my ex-boyfriend once told me, while i was in california, missing him terribly, that "pain is fear leaving the body." if pain did not express itself (whether physically or emotionally), it would stay inside, as fear. fear colors our worldview and brings more pain upon ourselves. it's a good thing to express the pain and fear that we feel. i have been surrounded by loving beautiful people who have been trying to help me get through the pain of this recent breakup (which i've never experienced, by the way. i've only had one boyfriend in my life). i am so thankful for their loving patience. but they have been trying to tell me to stop crying, to stop being upset, to stop feeling this pain. all i want, though, is to feel the pain, express it, and release it. i cannot release that which i push back down into the deepest corners of my mind. all of it needs to get out of me. no one would ever tell another person, "oh, you have to go to the bathroom? well, that's not good for you, just ignore the pain, it'll go away." no one would ever tell someone who was sick to their stomach and throwing up "swallow that back down, you don't need to throw up, throwing up sucks." the thought is absurd. if you need to get something out, get it out! it's doing no good to you when it's trapped inside!
pain not expressed is worse than pain felt and then buried.
love
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